Lucky 13

sotd: frfr – oliver francis.

Went semi full time this week at carphone because school has kinda just given us a week off for fun (na well for “work experience” but I did that two weeks ago so I’m kinda just chilling and getting slave laboured at carphone) But anyway 3 days I’ve worked I’ve done 13 subs which is pretty decent numbers, I have one day left where I reckon I can hit top of the region. Coffee is for closers. In all honesty the job is just trying to find solutions for people, if you have answers to any question there’s no way you can’t sell.

So the actual blog post for today is about “frame battles” an idea recounted upon my by the guru, the tao of zen young redbeard. So in any social interaction he says each person comes with a frame and they clash, whoever ends up with the frame dominating the conversation wins the conversation as they have the stronger frame. A frame is anything, it could be the energy you say something, the attitude you say it with or even the language you use. Battle is a little bit of a misnomer because usually it isn’t hostile. When you talk to someone who swears a lot you can get drawn into their frame and start swearing more. Conversely you may cede to the frame of a higher authority such as a doctor and swear less with them.

Being pumped up and happy draws the same from other people, if it is embraced but if one only presents a facade it is quickly blown down by the negativity of others.

Sometimes of course it is malicious. I never really understood this as a kid, how people found that always taking the piss when someone else is being serious, that someone then trying to be non-serious and the people laughed at them – this in the theory is because the person was forced to enter someone elses frame thus giving away their power and swearing fealty.

So that’s the little snippet for today, chilling tomorrow, gonna read eat and vain.

Brain vs Lane

sotd: oneplus 5 launch because its sexy. To be honest with everything, the only thing I want in a phone is that it just works. None of this intermittent wifi or phone ready to melt your balls off when its just sitting in your pocket. I reckon I will go for apple next, despite my hate for their devices they just seem to work (until they don’t) or at least don’t do that really hot thing where I think my legs are about to catch fire.

I’ve been reading this book about genetics partly for university interviews partly because it’s kinda applicable to daily life in that it tells you how to live mad healthy and one little snippet caught my eye about how one should live life not in accordance to our emotions and what we think we want but what we know is better for us, that’s where contentment lies.

That’s where the effort is, the process of denying your emotional desires, to stop yourself from following the narrative set by your brain that you are to dutifully follow day in and out. I realise just how easy it is to get sucked into this desire for my brain to just sit around watch television and play games, telling myself it’s what I need to do.

I think what I was really good at the last few months was just not having this temptation all the time, not having anything to actuallyr resist and that allowed me to control and do what needed to be done. Should I have stayed like that and not gone back to following my base motivations, probably, but it’s good I think to just unfurl the sails every now and then.

 

Pale Nation

sotd: twenty did it again – 24hrs. When a big black man sounds like a small white boy.

I was gonna talk about some things that popped up, my diagnosis about emotion and why docility is key, chilled for a little while avoiding it then hopped on instagram and saw justin escalona on a live – click on it and it opens with him talking about the human condition. Then I realised how ridiculous it all was. that at 17 I’m trying to write a treatise on things people have devoted their lives to.

So that’s today’s post. “In all things have no preference” says the dokkodo, that list that lies above my bed that has been unread for months. Basically you really shouldn’t have opinions on anything unless you have properly researched into it or have done it. What most annoys me in my day, the one thing that grinds my gears more than anything else in the entire world is these instagram girls who live in los angeles are vegans who go to boxing class or the gym everyday but still can’t lift more than two kilos but have a metabolism such that it doesn’t matter what they eatand have built up a following of thirsty guys (myself included) and then have devided any action they take must be gospel or something like that even in realms like politics, health or don’t even get me started on “hustle” because nothing grinds my gears more than girls who spend all their time in cafes and bars “networking”.

So that’s my two cents on the whole thing.

September Rain

Sotd: I love it when you cry – Steve aoki. 

Glasgow open day today and dunno really what to think. 

I’m not sure how I’m going to choose a university. Glasgow actually looked pretty promising during lectures where they proclaim freedom and flexibility and you sit enraptured in their rhetoric before you realise that on fact every university offers it. I seem to have developed this undying allegience for natural sciences at Cambridge despite having not really read what it entails nor understand what is better. 

A realization fell upon me today that perhaps I would prefer a humanity. A history or a law or economics. The only reason I never really considered it was I was just expected to do science and I did it well enough to never consider otherwise. But in terms of actual enjoyment maybe a humanity would be better? 

I’m not sure honestly. Looking back at the last school year I spent most of it just sitting around in class bored out of my mind drawing fidget spinners or whatever else I spent the last year doing. I doubt university is going to change much, apparently it’ll be a challenge but they’ve said that every year. I’ll give it a crack anyway – I’ve years of my life to waste right now and I might love it. 

I have realised that I probably like the small college environment a la st Andrews or Cambridge. I haven’t actually been to either yet but I can imagine enjoying myself in this little town of sorts going around surrounded by peers and not the scary public. 

Brew Dog

sotd: wdyw – carnage

rewriting today’s post because it was goddamn awful and really wasn’t something one could post. And I think that’s what the rework will be about – the fact that this is public.

After watching a little too much blacklist (the programme will be the death of me – there’s something like 80 episodes almost an hour long each) it’s terrifying what people can do with the information. Or the fact that it’s up here forever and that it could come back to bite me at any time.

Everyone does illegal things, from downloading films online to trespassing or something like that, no one gets charged because no one can be bothered but I dunno I have like a few hundred confession tapes that if someone bothered I could get charged or something.

I totally doubt that honestly but something that is kinda scary is how one little mistake when you’re young can ruin your life. How a criminal conviction at a young age will destroy your job opportunities, loans you can take or anything like that. Perhaps there should be an upheaval, where maybe eventually the criminal record gets wiped off because you only have the one life and it’s terrifying that you can be branded early on and be affected for the rest of your life.

 

Jelly Doughnut

Sotd: castles – elias abid

There’s this one bakery that’s never really open. Everytime you walk past the stands are filled with pastries but the doors always locked and no one’s in. I’ve been in a few times and the manager just told me everyone there is a slack off and doesn’t really bother opening up. 

So finally today of all days it was open when I walked past. I walked in and bought a doughnut and yeah it was disgusting weirdly stale and way too sweet.

The idea of that jam doughnut was certainly better than the reality and that’s the thing of today. That your ideals that when actually reached can never really ever match your beliefs. After that do you bother chasing after the next thing knowing there’s no point or just stop there. 

I really should have read homo deux slower, some of the ideas are terrifying. One of course being our search for meaning in a universe without meaning and that there really isn’t a point of anything. To say a person has a purpose is to say a grain of sand has a goal in the universal sense. 

Perhaps I’m being melodramatic for the point of it or maybe I just need something to focus on and strive for because I’m bored and lazy right now. 

September Rain

Sotd: I love it when you cry – Steve aoki. 

Glasgow open day today and dunno really what to think. 

I’m not sure how I’m going to choose a university. Glasgow actually looked pretty promising during lectures where they proclaim freedom and flexibility and you sit enraptured in their rhetoric before you realise that on fact every university offers it. I seem to have developed this undying allegience for natural sciences at Cambridge despite having not really read what it entails nor understand what is better. 

A realization fell upon me today that perhaps I would prefer a humanity. A history or a law or economics. The only reason I never really considered it was I was just expected to do science and I did it well enough to never consider otherwise. But in terms of actual enjoyment maybe a humanity would be better? 

I’m not sure honestly. Looking back at the last school year I spent most of it just sitting around in class bored out of my mind drawing fidget spinners or whatever else I spent the last year doing. I doubt university is going to change much, apparently it’ll be a challenge but they’ve said that every year. I’ll give it a crack anyway – I’ve years of my life to waste right now and I might love it. 

I have realised that I probably like the small college environment a la st Andrews or Cambridge. I haven’t actually been to either yet but I can imagine enjoying myself in this little town of sorts going around surrounded by peers and not the scary public.